6:00 a.m. I woke up at my girlfriend’s apartment, I got my stuff together and I headed out. I have to visit my mother today and I’m going to visit my friend Fast Freddy as well. I have to drop my truck off at the mechanics in Essex to do a full brake job, front and back.
7:00 a.m. I hung out at a friend’s house and worked on writing blogs and various things that I needed to catch up on.
At 11:00 a.m. I drove over to my mother’s house. As always it’s good to see my mom, Charlie the dog, and the cat Wheezy.
2:30 p.m. I drove my truck to my mechanics shop in Essex and left the truck, and put the keys in the Dropbox. My friend Fast Freddy who lives down the street can pick me up. Fast Freddy and I hung out for the afternoon. My girl is pretty upset with me for leaving early and has been texting me to let me know how unhappy she is with me. This can be stressful for me I try not to let it bother me though. Ultimately it does get to me.
6:30 p.m. I left my friend Fast Freddy’s house, and I drove to another friend’s house who lets me stay there occasionally. I don’t have the energy to stay out in the woods tonight. My body is sore and I’ve been through a lot in the last few days. I need to have a good rest inside, my body and my mind needs to heal, the stress is overwhelming. At this stage in the last few weeks after getting sick, and dealing with the big move as well as getting a new job, and how all this impacts this project of homelessness, I have experienced extreme psychological stress and anxiety. I cannot express the toll it’s taken on me, although I have been working through it silently, staying diligent, and knowing that I will overcome this mental barrier as I have so many times in the past. The stick-to-itness I’ve been taught by my mentors, and from all the great human beings I’ve learned from in so many books, has helped me work through the hardest, most difficult of human trials and tribulations. If anything I expect hardships, and I am prepared for them. Through loss, addiction, betrayal, incarceration, and now myself imposed homelessness I’ve learned that life never ends, it’s always unfolding there’s nothing we can do about it. The only option we have is to accept life or fight it and suffer. At this point I accept life and the challenges that come with it.