8:30 a.m. I woke up in the tent. I take my time getting out of the tent. Today I plan on starting the mini-series of setting up my mega camp.
9:10 a.m. I trek over to the location for the mega camp. I record myself clearing the area out. Once that’s all finished I drive over to Lifebridge for lunch.
11:30 a.m. I parked my car between the library and Lifebridge so that way it’s a quicker walk back to the car depending on where I go. I’ve been enjoying walking instead of riding the bike. Riding the bike seems to cause pain in my knees over time. Where walking causes no pain. The cold also makes it difficult to ride the bike. When I arrive at Lifebridge I sat at the table with my friend Sean. I asked if there’s any updates on Matt the musician. According to Sean, Matt plans on staying in the hospital as long as it takes to detox off of the alcohol.
12:30 p.m. After lunch I take a walk over to the Tent City next to Wendy’s. There’s no one around so I do a quick video. Since there’s not much going on I walk back to the library.
1:15 p.m. I arrive at the library and I hang out for a while doing work on my phone like writing blogs, uploading videos and such. I’m always running around doing stuff, and I always get back logged on work. It sucks being my own boss because I’m accountable to myself. I’m always getting caught going down these ADHD rabbit holes. The Karen Read case, psychedelics as anti-inflammatories, oh and you can’t forget the girl friend takes up a lot of psychological energy.
3:15 p.m. I talked to my girlfriend. She wanted me to stay the night but my plan was to bring the gear out to set up the mega camp. I tell her that I’ll stay the night but I have to leave early in the morning.
4:00 p.m. I drive my little car over to where my truck is parked. I grabbed the 16-person tent out of the truck. I had gone shopping earlier and bought a tarp and some tie down string at Harbor Freight. I drive out to the location of my camp and walk into the forest. I carry the 90 lb tent bag on my back like a backpack, it’s uncomfortable. I have the bag with the tarp and other supplies in my hand. I stashed this gear under an abandoned makeshift camp I had found a short way down the trail and then I hiked back out of the woods and drove to my girlfriend’s apartment.
6:00 p.m. I arrived at my girl’s house. I had stopped at the grocery store and grabbed some candy for her and raviolis to make a simple dinner. We spend the night together, which is always therapeutic for me.
HINDSIGHT: 10/13/2025
The megacamp was grandiose concoction. I thought it up as a more lavish place to live outside. I don’t know why my mind overcomplicates things with these grand imaginings. Another thing I grew to understand more about myself, and I keep front and center in my mind today, is I find it’s easier for me to take care of others than it is for me to take care for myself. Not that I live like an unkempt or disheveled lifestyle, I do provide myself with nice things, and stay active and involved in my life. I just know that when it comes to others I am very attentive and responsive. Often times I lack motivation to do things for myself, or focus on what is healthy, I also cycle through periods of depression and anxiety. One of the greatest lessons I learned from my mother when I was young was that I had to work. I started working young, and I have never stopped. Work has saved me from the darker parts of myself.